Secrets

I feel that everyone has at least one secret tucked deep away. Something that only you or few know. Maybe these things are hidden, suppressed away to avoid bringing up past traumas. Maybe a simple regret done in a moment of ignorance, stupidity, immaturity, or what have you. Some of us have dark secrets; secrets that may have cause pain, confusion, or denial. Some people carry issues that, if  resurfaced, could tear a family apart. We all have that skeleton somewhere. 

Maybe a one night stand...

Maybe the knowledge of a crime of enormous magnitude...

Maybe something that kills a part of yourself to admit is true.

I have knowledge of an event in  the '90's that I have lived with ever since. This secret led to my downfall as the person I once was. A secret that spawned my rebirth into whatever this is that I've become. 

 

Bottling this infestation up for years damaged my psyche. An inability to process the events kept me living in the past. Without any way to cope, it festered in my brain for years upon years. 

And yet, I've made no progress.